These are the yellow roses my momma bought me today because she’s proud that I’ve declared that I’m going into recovery.
My day has not been easy. I joined 2 new anon groups. SLAA & another codependency group and bought a book about gaining self esteem. Then I was hypnotized for the first time to get over my fear of vomit and to love myself and it worked! So far I’ve been able to eat in a restaurant with my mom without feeling panicky and I’ve not had to use any xanax which is good because I’m going to really hate myself if I do. I think the abilify is working also which is good news because I’ve been waiting a long-ass time to feel this relief. Things are moving in a a positive and healthy direction even though this shit sucks REALLY hard.